Just some mushy overflowings
In 32 days I will stand in front of some of the most important people in my life and I will make some promises that will completely WRECK my life… in the most beautiful way.
I will make a commitment that will be broken only by one (or both) of us making the ‘Final journey home’
I think it’s just now starting to sink in that this is REAL.. it’s REALLY happening. Simeon Peter Bayton really has picked ME to be his bride!!!!!
THIS IS SO AMAZING!!!! I HAVE NO WORDS SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT MUSH MUSH BOUNCE SQUEEK NDSOIFGNSLDKSNFDLNFSDLKKNLSFDKN!!!!!!!!!!
I can’t say I didn’t know love like this existed because I’ve had it modelled to me over and over by some AWESOME couples - both my own age and muchmuch older ;o) haha. I just gave up on it for me… not in a negative way -more that I just realised I could receive all I needed from GOD. He is the lover of my soul, my saviour and my best friend and I got to a point (having had everything else stripped away) where that really was enough… not just in theory but in reality!!
I had a good few months of being re-romanced by my Jesus and realising how he sees me and well there’s a lot of wonderful stories in there.. I like to tell stories so feel free to ask me ;o)
I was happy with that being my ‘lot’ in life to be honest. I was surrounded by AMAZING people who REALLY came through for me when it counted and went WAY beyond what’s ‘expected’ of friends and family to care for and protect me. I just somehow felt so LUCKY to be ME. I wasn’t sure how motherhood would figure in that but I felt content (eventually) that God would do what was best whether I understood it or not.
And now here I am… in the final weeks before marrying a man through whom I have learned more about Gods love than I can possibly explain. SO much of what I understood in theory became even MORE REAL through the way Simeon has loved, cherished and waited for me. Simeon isn’t somehow blind to my flaws - if anything our being together magnifies the weaknesses in each of us… which is painful and difficult sometimes but so VERY exciting at the same time. In wanting to love each other above ourselves we are FORCED to continually give ourselves (and each other) back to the one who loves us most
Oh I wish I could say it more eloquently.. more poetically.. I wish this was more than just a mushy outpouring of wordvomit haha
*sigh*
I just can’t believe that I get to be loved (and to love) like this! I can’t believe that there is a man who is SO exactly what I need so much more than I could ever desire… oh I love him SO much!!! He’s SO FLIPPIN’ BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!
AND HE LOVES ME!!!!!
I’M GETTING MARRIED TO SIMEON BAYTON!!!!!!!!!!!
*EXPLODES WITH HAPPINESS AND EXCITEMENT*
xxx
